(Chorus) Starting to realize people don't care for me Thru the struggles nobody is ever there for me If I died everybody'd say a prayer for me When my tape drops y'all better prepare for me (Verse 1) I'm smoking real good and man I love herbs I ain't from the hood i'm from the suburbs But I promise you that I dont live real nice My homie once told me hearts can never heal twice I can't afford a phone, mom can't pay for cable I spit the illest tone & I still ain't seen by labels I'm done feeling alone & so unstable Soon food will be thrown on my mommas table Me and my mother never see eachother smile Prob cuz I replaced my aborted brother Kyle Damn, none of y'all even wanna hear that f** it homie, where's the case of beer at, "it's near pat" I'm the fiend around town always scrapin res "I'm so high" is what the dude videotapin says I'm tired of these who*es who deviate my brain So I smoke weed in order to alleviate the pain It really hurts when you can't trust a friend Lookin down the barrel as I thrust the end Thinkin to myself like man I must contend I really gotta keep rhyming and just ascend But it's so difficult when I can barely sleep For now i'll just sell my CDs for fairly cheap Until I get a deal and rapidly rise to fame These fake hoes will soon despise my name None of y'all will be gazin at my eyes the same JFK memorial ya can't desize my flame Shooting for the stars, but the skys my aim After my mixtape i'm about to revise the game (Chorus) Starting to realize people dont care for me Thru the struggles nobody is ever there for me If I died everyone would say a prayer for me When my tape drops y'all better prepare for me (Verse 2) My life is turning into a complete nightmare Nothing ever changes even despite prayer None of y'all give me a change to fight fair And seeing Courtesy wit a smile is quite rare Well, thats not even true I put on a new persona The truth comes out when I drink a few coronas I walk around actin like nothing can bother me How is an addict gonna grow to be a father, G? Why am I so damn lazy, and envious at the earth My room is hazey, to fill the emptiness since my birth What am I worth? probably not even a dime I promise after this track I ain't leavin this time I was gonna quit rap, I couldn't put a bar together Emotions changin like New Jersey's bizarrest weather I'm freezing up on stage like pipes in cold Winter Moms mad cuz I ain't workin like an old printer (Chorus) Starting to realize people dont care for me Thru the struggles nobody is ever there for me If I died everyone would say a prayer for me When my tape drops y'all better prepare for me (Verse 3) Yin and Yang b**h, reppin until my dying days It's been a long road since I was jus buying haze I'm drunk as hell, like Churchill the prime minister Evil spirits within me, thats why I rhyme sinister Ya wonder why I condone scandalous actions I have no patience, I can't handle distractions ADD medication makes me bounce off the ceiling f** grams, blowin by the ounce now we feeling Higher than ever, and man we ain't landing soon Now I'm f**in b**hes cuz of my outstanding tunes Back when the hoes wouldn't invite me to the party Now they just wanna f** all night drinking Bacardi