Dystopia - AS OF NOW lyrics

I'm 19 living with my parents and I'm not in college People view me as a bum, and I cannot stop it Now I'm back on the streets, need to find a place to stay So I hit up Julian, now it's time to contemplate Always look to the stars, I find a shooting one So I make a wish for my career, I know it won't be done Then I sit and think about the girl I wanna love All the ones that broke my heart How things should've gone I should've listened to my counselor All I wanted was p**y and power Possessed by the p**y and the power I should've listened to my counselor As of now I'm here to send my bro off to New York yea yea Talk and contemplate our dreams while we bumping fidlar yea I got family selling d** , I got family gang banging I don't say it proudly I pray that they make it home safely I f**ed up with my baby, now sh** is complicated It's music or I die, and I'm not exaggerating Hard to be a role model for my little cousins When I'm out here being wild on Instagram cussin' Hopefully it won't be long until my name is buzzin Been working way too hard , me and vuhsace I Got two friends that's serving for our country I pray that they live to see the day where I achieve my dreams Yea, p**y and power That's all I wanted Now I'm being haunted As of now b*tch, i can't change sh** I ain't gunna front Yeah I miss you I just wanna hug you, then I wanna kiss you Take u to a restaurant I barely can afford boo I can't afford to lose you I can't lose it The city got faith in me, I gotta ride it You say that I lied to you Baby I promise I didn't You say u hate me Good riddance cause I'm a**hole As of now, I got some thinking to do As of now, I can't be thinking of you I heard you cry on the phone That's how I really know That I love you, love u As of now I'm working towards you Yeah I really f** with you As of now, this is where I'm at and i will grow As of now this is where im at and i will still grow, u already know ye Yeah i do it for the city, i do it for my brothers, i do it for my family, i do it for my baby Ya i do it for my baby girl Im gon win u back ya