Dutch - Meaning of Unequipped lyrics

I realised today I should have invited you with me Every time I left Every time I left Left, I left, I left I went away with a boy I admired Then one day on the beach with no harbour I wept for the water between us Wept 'cause I keep on leaving I left, left I wept, I wept I'm crazy about a boy I can't seem to start again I'm wild about a boy I've never been so damn ignored I made a terrible mistake I can't start again I'm so hellbent on loving and leaving All of a sudden there's something I'm craving for you to make me an honest woman Make you my honest man My man, my man