DRTYUNCL - Lovelife? lyrics

Another depressing track about my love life I used to relate to Slug when he said "love your life" Now I'm too jaded for that ideology Grown a** man with some childhood dreams That I'll never complete, so now I rarely speak Come to terms with the fact that God hates ugly And certainly me, girls look at me strange Always fidgitin' my fingers, man I'm out of place Every time I make eye contact I look worried I'm a man with problems, some deeply disturbing I've earned these scars my psyche's carved on The images stained, shame knifed into my arm So much for confidence, right? There's a reason I keep sleepin' alone at night I awake to days as grey as the pen's paste I spackle on a page to make words sound the same And when I place 'em in formation it helps me forget That tomorrow is sh** and I'm not lookin' forward to it I forfeit , I quit, I'm done Searchin' for new Coppertone under an old I burned my soul when I stopped chasing those Faces that burn holes with different chromosomes Got enough problems on this lake doin' a backswim Water gets added creating a sea of sadness And I've been tryin' to swim upstream anyhow Wishin' for a past flames ash tray now Thinkin' back to when I had life all figured out Becomin' less waterflow, more broken can*l Here comes the water pressure I've been watchin' build for what seems to be forever Life, a little bit colder, a little bit wetter It bites a little bit deeper with pulmonary dentures No one ever told me not to venture too far Miles out of town, can't spot where the people are Its hard headed to think these women wanna sink Their teeth into me after walkin' that far to meet me And I was workin' on a greeting A three sentence biography, everything about me But I think I'll take this stone I found on the ground Carve "Keep Out", raise it high and stand down No need to fan flames now, even the charcoal's cold I know you can't buy love with a bar code I continue to try, this sickness and I Are gonna sprint towards life until one of us dies I found endurance under layers of plight So I keep my struggles clockwise, at my bedside To remind me why I strive for constant improvement in music 'Cus without this its useless Haven't got my dick wet in years But every time I try to compare myself and my peers I know I've got a better career over the landscape Plenty women's affection depends on what a man makes If that's what it takes for love to retrace I'd rather f** like a mantis than move at an ants pace I want an escape and I find responsibility I'm lonely as remorse and they're equally fillin' me My pessimism's k**in' me day by day I'm livin' out Ryan Leaf's play by play I'm searchin' the scene for a similar human being And every time I find one I awake from a dream Open my eyes and I'm back in Corps school Thinkin' "Maybe this DXM ain't really more food For thought, but rather where I got my thoughts from" Maybe I'm point A on point B's outcome Maybe I should run away from myself Fit into the thin skin of somebody else Let it pa** through my epidermis into the cells When they call me unique and say "Love yourself" Love your life... Love your life... I think I'd rather die tonight..