Dotty - Thoughts lyrics

They say the homes where the heart is Then the hearts where the hood is cah my homes up in the hood that's where it started With my n***as we ain't parted The same mind frame Eat the whole cake then lick the plates then we want afters Their hoping that I drop off or get nick or in da box Or stay up on them blocks shotting them rocks and never make a lot Got to much to grind for To much to die To much dedication I'm filthy rich in the making Ahy I'm on a mission where there's marble in the kitchen And da gardens out of vision Ending deep down in da distance Wid a diamond who ain't obsessed bout herself and she just listens Who respects me for success but don't judge me how I did it Bruddas in da same position Now that's winning Right now I'm in a race and my feet dem are f**ing k**ing Tryna stay ahead I ain't shoulder rubbing to fit in Cah n***as here either trap or they begging man for a bring in Straight head shots for dem n***as dat stay singing See I can hold a note but you'll never hear bout me singing See I could write a book of all da drama that I been in But f** feeling sorry for myself I'm still living To dat girl that loved I won't forget you That conversation by the bridge on the bench it was special It's funny how we fell so deep in such a short time We would go halves on a date it weren't all mine Sort of like a friendship Told her that I loved her and I meant it Then I broke her heart and weren't man enough to mend it But years past and tears died You built walls I built mine You always said I use to show my feelings at the wrong time Maybe it was, maybe it weren't but lemme change up I'm tryna live the dream while these haters hoping I wake up Truth is I've been awake Been plotting on some bigger cake Word to rave holidays the only My time I take a break To be honest I don't know where my mind be I'm staring dead in this mirror I'm tryna find me Reasoning wid Jus He's like my unrelated Siamese Always pushing me to write cah the scene ain't got nothing like me He's says Live life love it Tek gyal f** it I just went and got that 16 plate car wid da buckets Half German girl tryna put a baby in her oven So I hold it in after the session after we f**ing but I ain't ready for another child I ain't learn my lesson Not my first but my second that I hardly mention They never got to live and I'm apart the reason that is Selfish mind religious crime Man I need the masjid I fell off deen and went and got my p's up Yeah I'm better of for money but my situations f**ed Working 7 days a week there ain't no breaks out on that block And if it ain't that dirty rock I'm selling tickets for that gwop My cousins in jail, found guilty on the trial But where just some good kids tryna get it and get out While these n***as want the fame they only thinking bout the now I tell em what about your future n***a what about your future Kids growing up wishing that they never knew ya Man it's different round my local I've been distant I ain't social Been stabbed chased n***as down and been chased down I've been bad it's all changed round I got a kid now