DJ Frantic - Automated Negligence lyrics

Verse 1: July 12 1987 The resurgence of hate brings me into this earth With a curse Directed from my father cause to him i was a bother From the start i was rejected he dont seem to regret it Moms was beat spat at with hate Flipped her confidence in men into a distrust in all of them 4 years into this earth barely new this individual Hes what you would call a deadbeat and a criminal I talk to myself question his decisions I could always sense he would never pa** the outerlimits Of knowing me giving me love where its supposed to be Thank god for my mom protecting me from such harm Damn he couldn't do this for me 2? Was it his messed up upbringing Or something more conflicting Problems of his past got lost in the dash But rather than go through them he hid his demons in his stash Hook 1: Whats life when your circle around the same thing Thinking heavy of situations its nonexisting Inherits without choice Listened to the lower power Programming his soul and spirit to be sour Can't fight it Naw naw Hes in a crisis Quantized to the tempo of satan and his likeness He dont want me i guess ill never know why His negligence is live and mortified Verse 2: All this has led me to be subdued On a route paved down onto a crushed groove With both hands on my head i frown and descend To a place where failure continues to regress I detest whove i become Unlike my peers i tend to disagree with me being a good son I pray my mother forgives me your son doesnt think highly of himself Im quiet but really screaming out for help What's this Insanity and paranoia My delusion Since i left california At age 23 i could see it Depression followed me b4 birth it ain't genetically a secret Now that yall know Its shocking to behold How a dude so nice could think so low In my defense if theres one thing i could say Demons stay locked in my brain every second of the day Hook 2: Whats life i circle around the same thing Thinking heavy of situations its nonexisting Inherit without choice Listen to the lower power Programming my soul and spirit to be sour Can't fight it Naw naw Im in a crisis Quantized to the tempo of satan and his likeness I dont want it i guess ill never know why My negligence is live and mortified