DJ Drama - Blame Game lyrics

[Verse 1: Jon Connor] On a bathroom wall I wrote "I'd rather argue with you than be with someone else" I took a piss and dismiss it like "f** it" And I went and found somebody else f** arguing and harvesting the feelings Yo, I'd rather be by my f**ing self Till about two a.m. and I call back And I hang up and I start to blame myself Somebody help... You used to cry cause both your parents was addicts and your sister was ratchet So I made it my mission to get you up out of that sh** Probably my fault for trying to be a hero when I can't be Or your fault for sending me DM's that said "Save me" sh** I was trying, I know that we been had some ups and downs At Xzibit house, found out you and some n***a f**ing now Lied and said you told him about us and that he don't mess with you Well if ya'll ain't f**ing, why the f** this n***a texting you While you was sleeping I'd go and pick up your phone And said "babe is you okay? And let me know when you coming home" So I put you on a plane like I'm done with you I fly back to Flint and I'm back in the back of the whip choking and f**ing you I know you ain't getting this type of dick from that local dude You was running game on me like this n***a was coaching you I'm f**ing girls over while you was f**ing some other dude In the beginning saw something in you, but that just wasn't you Love no cost a thing, and that's why I wouldn't cheat Western Union every week so you and your daughters could eat Western Union every week so you and your kids could sleep On a bed while your sister would throw you out on the street Thought if I showed you California and the sh** that I was doing with the music You would stop being so motherf**ing stupid I wouldn't try to buy you, I tried to be by you Wanted you and the girls to have a f**ing better life too Came home for Christmas, I think it was on a Friday Drive to your crib, homies' car was already in the driveway I walked to the door, my future flashed before my eyes I'm finally signed and I'm about to give it up over pride See I just left Hawaii and now I'm standing in the hood arguing with a n***a over a b**h I was calling wifey This n***a stood in front of you and said you was his side b**h, you still behind that n***a he looking at me like that's my b**h Wanted to spazz, but we in somebody else's home She kept telling me to leave cause she was already gone 1000 dollars in an envelope you can have it I made sure you had it, even if I ain't had sh** Always said "Jon we're living too different lives" Ain't know that's an excuse for you f**ing two different guys Outer beauty never hides the ugliness that's inside Memories haunt my mind, but all I know is that I tried Told you I'd leave you alone if you was really in love with him We could never work cause you ain't never stop f**ing him It all was a lie, regardless of how I felt Now I see you for who you are, can't do nothing but blame myself For Real..