Dizzla D - Loved You Madly lyrics

Hey y'all, love is... love is found in weird places For me, it was... it was at the psych ward I know it sounds kinda sounds crazy No pun intended But let me explain I took a look, first glance at her I don't understand it Don't understand these feelings Don't understand this magic Don't understand this meeting Was it meant to happen I don't buy that sh**, nope, but I buy this pa**ion No no that intuition is indescribable, in this trance and Every last individual in this room feels it, it's happenstance We locked our eyes, our hearts collide, our thoughts entranced and that's when I felt that click, I reached out to you, you reached back, held my hand I knew it then, I'd met the one, met my first love, my answer The answer to my problems, problematic, probably prancer He's callin, bawlin, all in, darling you should probably answer But you never do, you leave him blue and crawling, cancer Calling in the rain dear he's falling out and backwards Stupid cupid who did you think you was all enhancing Never wanted to die till that fall when all this happened Suicidal in 8th grade, no now that all looks manic She's incomparable, intolerable, yet all this bull is somehow not enough to get me off of you, im on the glue, I want the truth, but talking to, you often proves, inoperable, no not when you won't hawkins mute, no not one text or call from you, I don't understand these reasons, I don't understand this Don't understand these feelings Don't understand this magic Don't understand this meeting Was it meant to happen Are you buying sh**, cuz im selling crap and I think we got lots in common, self-loathing and hatred Can I buy you a drink, no? Can I buy you an eight then? Can I buy you a fifth, jeez, put something in the vape pen Just wanna get you feeling lighter, I ain't tryna get you wasted I got feelings i'm feeling, don't understand them, no not one thought hun Thinkin where I went wrong, where along the lines, with my finger on the shotgun His thought's pa**in hearts fast and hot flashin, stop I'm still talking pot one… Second from a second, yet there ain't no sequel to this night, and we're still on part 1, heartstrung Thought's are getting heavy, tides are turnin, turnin levees, yet he, says he's ready bet he slips up when he leans in and we make that first contact, lips are sloppy, palms are sweaty, we rehearsed on that, hips are taught he palms her head and, she reversed on that, climbs atop and say's you ready, he's confirms, on track, on his back grabbing the bed sheets, we inturn on that, she returns contact, we discern all fact, no f**in fiction this got edgy I don't understand it, wakin to this f**in text Gave you my first kiss, almost close to f**ing s** And now we're nothing more than something sore and f**in friends Soon to be nothing more than something you're gone f**in miss See now i'm walking out, even though you walked out first I'm done with lying s*uts i'm trying but this'll never work This'll never hurt, any less, lesson learned, any rest, rest a**ured, bet your bets, bet it's earned, been writing out these feelings since the day you left me deaf for words And then she said I don't understand it, I don't understand it I wasn't into you, I was just so manic I was just so lost, I was just so panicked I wasn't reaching out, you just held my hand quick Didn't know what to say, didn't know what to do I just lost myself, right here in this moment with you In this moment of couth, in this moment of youth, in this moment we're two like fallopian tubes, now we are only just through, so don't hold me if you don't know lonely if only you'd told me the truth Still might be working out, I might be up out your way Still might be looking round for something else to f**in say Reasons we never worked, the reasons that I couldn't stay Reasons he never hurt, the seasons that'll never change See when I fall in love, I don't just fall I break So I ain't fallin now, I ain't gon' fall today You're just not worth the guilt, you're just not worth the pain Just ain't worth rollin dice, just ain't worth playing games Is that how you see me? See that heart next to your name Is that how you feel me? Because all my feelings came And all my feelings gone, and all I feel is shame And all I feel is fear, fear that you feel the same