Disciple Eternal - Regrets (Apology) lyrics

[Intro: Disciple Eternal] I got things I wish I could take back like reset But they already done like sunset Used to play around like recess But in the end, all I got was regrets [Verse: Disciple Eternal] Look, I don't know how I could do what I did Hate my old self who lived in his sin Hate that now there are times I can't win I know I don't deserve it like all men But Lord, please pour Your forgiveness, I'll never say when I wake up to sin, and I lay with her at night Without Your guidance, at bait, I will bite Lord, I know it ain't what I like, but please Bring my sins in the light How can I win if I can't see what I fight? I know wounds can heal, just look at my scars If you want to see 'em, just look at my arms But my past wounds keep me behind bars They make me feel sick, even worse than SARS They in my past, why won't they stay there So far away, like they on Mars I know if I don't write this, I'ma die Do it to myself, suicide Ain't even joking, man, I already tried Lost count, I tried so many times Felt like life didn't have no reason Man, I didn't see no reason to try Felt like my wings were clipped There weren't no way I was finna fly, Lord, save me I can't do this on my own But I can do this since by You I'm owned Everything ain't mine like it's a loan If I stray away, give me a cap to the dome I'm a slave to You; chain me so I cannot roam My regrets stack higher than clouds in the sky I hate it when my past choses to arise But my past mistakes work to make me wise To those who've hurt me, I forgive To those I've hurt, I apologize My guilt twist in my gut like a shiv I can't bring myself to look you in the eyes Kat, Kylie, Chloe, why'd y'all let me live Both Alyssa's and the rest, I know my sin Now I'd k** any boy who does what I did They may think they a man, but naw, they a kid All it does is make them trash, like a bin Hope you can forgive me, don't know if I can forgive me I know Christ looks at me with love Even though He sees what I did, but it's done I know nothing changes when I clear my history But Christ can forgive me of my past If He can do that, it's no mystery My guilt just cannot last My dice has been cast There ain't nothing I can do That chance done past I let Him take the helm, I'm before the mast Lord, save me, s'il vous plait Mais je connais, tu peux me sauver I need You to change me, Your way, gotta be all the way No way I gonna stray, go my way What I did yesterday can't control today It's all Your time, You were here before time I ain't got no time to let me shine I turn on a dime to Your sublime glory Please write my story Without You my life is boring End up dead, with no rest You the best author that I ever met I'm set in Your ways so that when I die, I'll chill in the skies Can't wait, no regrets I been forgiven since the Son risen So from the sunrise to the dark skies I live like I finna die Spread the glory of God From the sky to the sod Lord, please keep me in line with Your rod Hit me if my head ever starts to nod ‘Cause I need to stay focused on Yyou You're the only way to Heaven and I know that's true I'm sticking to Your ways like crazy glue God, I'm in You, so I'm something new Every time the Devil reminds me of the past I tell him my past is just that Then I remind him of the future, ha! I just sit; I look at him and laugh Ain't finn'apologize for that That'd be crazy, man, I ain't going bats God's got a good average, I let him go to bat And I'm gone, now that I've said that