Diane M. Merlau - Defiantly Embittered lyrics

For too many years you walked on top of, not next to me, crushing my spirit, suffocating the voice of my virgin soul. Always needing to be better and stronger, can't you see, that eventually your anger would on me take its toll? ************ The pain I have endured and the losses I have sustained not much different than anyone else in my shoes. The years stolen from my body and life shall remain a thing of the past of which I cannot renew. ************ If not for my willingness to share in the blame of this marriage that has failed so completely, I would hate you for the times you cast on me shame, cheating me from relations with my family. ************ "To me now you're married not them", you would say. Why did I have to choose between you? And in times of d**h you continued in your way to control who I directed my devotions to. ************ For too many years, you told me my dreams were no good to ever be considered. Because mine were different and sometimes extreme. Thus, now I am defiantly embittered. ************ When my tears they would flow for whatever the matter, you seemed more to hate than to love me. "You shouldn't feel that way" would be your great answer. Unacceptable resolves leading to much greater misery. ************ Dear husband of mine, I know you have pain, but why did you have to take it out on me? All I ever wanted was to love and help you regain the loss that you felt from the time you were wee. ************