Deviated Presence - Awakening lyrics

For a long time it hasn't been there, perhaps never... Quietly it crept along all the time, always there, but not with me Now it's here, feeds on and destroys me It's everywhere, I cannot flee without leaving myself Time captures me Will it increase my distance? The tears will dry, or never be cried, when they fall it will leave with Them and nothing will be left of me. An awakening to see the downfall Like an old leaf that receives cognition before it's blown away Just to realize: now it's too late Is this a dream or a nightmare? Summerdays fade A part of me dies, buried by the other, secluded and without remorse It's still, the funeral in solemn peace, in the air's the question: "What shall become?" Here I lie now and watch. It's another life. Through the looking gla** I Can see, clouds drag past like ethereal to show that the time goes by While my mind is clear in empty space You think you can be, but are not there. This world of repeating Obscurities, back from my deviations time diverges to capture me in Presence. The only way has no return betrayed by myself The fall came suddenly Meaningless everything now Weightless, all burdenings are gone Absolute freedom, feel it before the eternal nothingness Perishing finally my life leaks out Next to the flowers My torment beneath their beauty, the memories gather Waving like seeds in the summernights' wind Reminders of gratification And soon the mourning will end Repentance fills emptiness with grief There won't be a return The sorrow has found its end