Dependence - That Was the First Day It Rained, and It Never Rains Here lyrics

I think it's time that I stop pulling back I think it's time that I stop redefining myself by something that I lack I've been working with only one gla** lung And I can barely breathe with all these cracks I've distanced myself from everything In order to be a little happy I've distanced myself from everything In order to be a little happy But if I'm not feeling, but if I'm not living Am I happy? am I happy? It's made, it's made me hollow to say the least I couldn't hold on to her, or to her God Not to her hands, or to her heart I couldn't hold on to anything I couldn't hold on to my everything And I can still see her now, I still fall apart in her eyes At least on the inside And I can still see her now, in pictures and memories And it's sad that something like that could die At least on the inside You can still see it in my eyes I wish I could have let her know, that I loved her so That she was everything that I ever wanted, or ever needed But you can't hold on to what isn't there You can't even see it in the air I hate how this isn't fair Yeah, I couldn't reach my feelings And I had to watch my whole life walk away When she was leaving I'm sick. I'm sick, and this hurting I'm sick. I'm sick of seeing That was the first day it rained, and it never rains here That was the first day it rained, and it never rains here That was the first day it rained, and it never rains here That was the first day it rained, and it never rains here