Dependence - Christopher lyrics

I only knew you so well I only wish, that I knew you better And though we didn't share the same mother I still loved you, I still loved you You were, my brother You were my brother You weren't someone I was Very close to, but you're Still someone that I looked up to All I ever really wanted to do, was to get to know you Just to get to know you, and get accepted by you That's all I ever really wanted to do I miss all the things I never got to know All the differents sides of you That were never shown And all the memories that never happened And the ones that did In my head they've seemed to blacken with time They feel like they aren't mine Like my mind stole them Like It just wanted to hold them // And when that day came It started out like any other I remember when I told god To take another Please just someone else Please not my brother Please just someone else, please not my Brother! But, by the end of It, there was pain There was a scar, attached to my family's name But god, made his choice I still remember the day When I forgot your voice But I'll never forget my grandma's When She screamed from across the room It felt like a dream I'll never forget the way she screamed And what about papa? You were just a boy You were just a boy You were just a boy You were his boy And you were only 18 You were only 18 And you had barely began living You were only 18 You were only 18 And you had barely began living I remembere when i told god To take another Please just someone else Please not my brother But god made his choice God made his choice I remember the day, when I forgot your voice It just isn't fair Not even after 8 years It just isn't fair Not even after 8 years Not even 8 years later Not even 8 years later Not even after 8 years