Denile (Jakey Chaos) - Thoughts (Off My Chest) lyrics

[Verse 1] I'm always writin' to find a purpose for whats its worth I'm strugglin' tryna find a reason to be on this Earth I wanna change the direction that I've been headin' But it's hard with all the setbacks from the ways that I've been set in Locked inside a small box to keep the lights out Don't even bother tryna see me cause my times out I'll just sit alone it's what I've always known Try as I might I cannot change the way the wind blows See the way I see the world it's a lost cause The planets hostile even if you've never crossed laws I've seen the evil that resides within the people You can see it when you look into their eyes can pierce you like a needle I'm not tryna say that I'm different or any better dude I used to find my comfort indulging what many never do I had to step outside that zone to try to break the mold And try to leave a piece of myself to let the others know [Hook] Holdin' my head down watching myself drown The only way to escape from how I feel now When the weight is too much I wanna drink it out Just let me go I know I got some sh** to think about Sinkin' under like a stone I'm at peace here All this time to think I swear it's only been a year So let me up now not so I can take a breath I just got some thoughts I think I oughtta get em off my chest [Verse 2] I've got a demeanor that keeps me trapped in a mirror Stuck watchin' from afar as I see the message is clearer A fear of something bigger than anything I imagined It's enough to keep me out of it far away from the action I walk a damaged path leading me right to the grave I'm not the first I always seem to find light in a cave You're not alone and if you don't believe it look at me 23 and still don't have a clue what life means Maybe all that time we spent in silence is what broke us But we've got hopes and dreams and that's the point we gotta focus Light at the end of the tunnel but it just seems long Before I know it I'll find the place where I belong It's always dark I try to focus on the positive And hopefully I can find a person with some thought to give Cause I've been searchin' for somethin' to help me see When I'm blinded by the shadows that bring out the inner me [Verse 3 ] I've been told I'm not good enough I should quit now Cause there ain't room for the both of us up in this town Your bars are wack the beats are sad your whole sound's weak You'll never make it anywhere even the underground scene But I keep writin' I'll find the purpose I know it's worth it I pour my heart out on the page not tryna make it perfect Put it together cause the music keeps me sane And it's the only true expression that pushes me through the pain