Demo (USA) - Placebo lyrics

[Verse 1] This is me, this is D, this is Adam, this is deep This is everything I never wanted it to be Miles I've walked on this road, trials I've stood on my own Rules I've over thrown, memories I've set in stone Everything has lead to this moment in time And there's not even a cloud, f** a silver line There's a f**ing sick stench in the air Still lingering around from friends that were there When sh** was simple Before I had this dint in my finger from all the ring pulls f** em though, f** you and ya feelings If you think this is about you 'coz what ya hearing Is ringin a bell And all of a sudden ya feeling guilty as hell I'm giving no more chances 'Coz How I feel about everything is between me and god So go to church if ya want for answers [Hook] The real pain is in my brain Life is a Placebo If there was someone else to blame Then there'd be a hero If you could only live my life For a half a day you'd see what it feels like To be empty and cold inside [Verse 2] Lock the door to this box room If ya dont my box will drop soon It'll keep these thoughts isolated 'Till I eat my words like they're fried n plated And it's just more ammo to supply the haters Knowing I've never tried to shy from danger Just realised I was f**ed from when I was a kid like I took a f**ing ride from a stranger [Bridge] I've been away n I've been back Come along way from a teen that Was self destructive, no help but f** it They offered me all I wanted and I took it [Hook] The real pain is in my brain Life is a Placebo If there was someone else to blame Then there'd be a hero If you could only live my life For a half a day you'd see what it feels like To be empty and cold inside [Verse 3] Put my casket infront of me, I'll jump in it Just make f**in sure that I'm drunk in it If I die before I beat this sh**, there better be a crate Were grave stone is or I'm a be afraid Of being laid with nothing to rest my soul And don't f**ing judge me, I'm not fussed on on being old Just write on my stone, 'I did what I love Did what I could and tried to do right by them I loved' There's not many who get me watchin my liver fail But them who do understand I'm hurt that I failed To get it right so many times 'coz each time it gets worse and They all know I dont deserve this burden But its not their beef, it's not their grief No one would even know if I didn't wear my heart on my sleeve But I do, always have and always will So I'll have a smile on my face when the last can spills [Hook] The real pain is in my brain Life is a Placebo If there was someone else to blame Then there'd be a hero If you could only live my life For a half a day you'd see what it feels like To be empty and cold inside