Deciding Tonight - This Is Not Here lyrics

This is what I wanted A chance for a better life than this A life that I can't get if I'm stuck here on dry land And when we're on the open sea I'll take my secrets write them down for you to see Tear them to shreds and then I'll throw them overboard I'll watch my words fade into the tide When the anchor drops for the last time I'll be free And I know that I'll be miserable When the hurricanes become unbearable And when the lines get tangled up And the nets are torn apart Having turned into the wind And the crashing waves they knock me from my feet I hope you'll remember me When this boy becomes a man If I never make it home Just know I didn't die alone Pretending this is all I want to say Even if I'm turned into the wind Pretending this is all I want to say as you cry this is good bye Pretending this is all i want to say Even though i've turned into the wind Pretending this is all i want to say It's not all i want to say It's not all i want to say That's all there is to say... Pretending this is all I want to say Even if I'm turned into the wind Pretending this is all I want to say as you cry this is good bye Pretending this is all i want to say Even though i've turned into the wind Pretending this is all i want to say as you cry this is