Dear You - Castles lyrics

I'm watching castles crumble from my place inside the valley I didn't think we'd fall so fast Jesus christ, it's not our time yet I'm watching things change from the front row It's sad to say the seat you took was always near the door It must be all my fault To think you cared at all I guess I pushed to hard instead and drove you away I'm watching castles crumble from my place inside the valley I didn't think we'd fall so fast Jesus christ, it's not our time yet I took the front seat while the train slid off the tracks All at once it hit me I was holding you back I stood my ground I felt everything change It hit me all at once, I couldn't make it stop I never thought I'd be stuck in this place: Hating myself for somebody else What makes you feel like you were always right? I don't blame you Now that the ship is taking on water All I can think about Is how this doesn't feel like home anymore I can't force myself to keep my head above the water If it doesn't feel real to me