DeAndre "PoPo" Smith - Father Figure lyrics

[Verse 1] Damn where do I begin? These be the hardest words I ever wrote with my pen I remember innocence, I was just a kid Wanting to have fun and get my father's attention You teaching lessons I don't get to this day Cold heart and hard hand or belt, the welts made me pray You'd stay gone providing for the home Does that make you a man, I'm not really sure With sore heart and bruised cheeks moms coming to me Nightgown shredded, no there's never any peace And my brother he's growing up to be a spitting image I'm livid this life I'm living ain't sh** I'm wishing for wisdom or a window out of this prison I got issues too many to mention Listening to f** the world and I'm feeling the same Calling for my daddy but he never came [Hook] Father, how did you figure I don't need a father figure Fighting hard to erase these scars Tryna see the big picture How could my father figure I don't need a father figure So many tears shed throughout these years How I missed ya, I missed ya [Verse 2] She finally left, guess we'd all had it rough Picking up the pieces never seen a woman so tough Moms held us down, but that still wasn't enough I'm whiling out skipping cla** looking for love In all the wrong places, truth is there's no replacement For a father daughter relationship I sit in silence crying, I'm tired but trying To carry on and be strong though inside I'm dying Writing letters to no response, what type of sh** you on? You got your guard up so how can we get along I need answers, you're indifferent so I'm gone, what's the difference? But inside I know that something's wrong, I'm missing My father, years go by we don't speak Then we do and then I see what they mean by talk is cheap Nothing's changed so I write you off in pen Can't take the pain, so your name is never mentioned [Hook] Father, how did you figure I don't need a father figure Fighting hard to erase these scars Tryna see the big picture How could my father figure I don't need a father figure So many tears shed throughout these years How I missed ya, I missed ya [Verse 3] It's 7am, I got 7 missed calls Seems in 7 minutes you gon visit the lord f** I'm up in Oakland and as I'm driving home I seen the clouds part and I knew you were gone How do I feel at this moment? I pray for your soul, desperately needing consolement I can't get over the lost hope of future involvement I'm pissed you never bothered to know your own daughter If it's d**h or be stronger, I must be a beast Fighting these demons daily so that you rest in peace Can't keep hate in my heart so I try to appreciate The strides you took in life and the progress you made Believe you did the best you were capable of And accept that some men don't know how to show love Or be loved, I pray to the lord above For guidance, keep smiling and let him be the judge [Hook] Father, how did you figure I don't need a father figure Fighting hard to erase these scars Tryna see the big picture How could my father figure I don't need a father figure So many tears shed throughout these years How I missed ya, I missed ya