Deakin - Just Am lyrics

Standing in the desert, faces stare back from the dunes Brought here by courage or delusion, I won't stop but I feel ripping mad So I am crying words that don't make sense to me or them But I am singing, I am singing, beams the child inside then disappears again Still I go on repeating words of loss and failure Of every choice that I gave up to guardian anger I hope that you can feel life Cause even watching descent i see light But I recall I called you hate Repeated words get locked and phased And these words attach Some words like stone You find with time you build more than sow You build a house You build what you know I wonder if that's home Tangled up at home, unloved intentions all I see All those collected, stacked, and fretted over treasures leave me spinning so I'll leave the door wide open my old friend, there's more unfound It's time for letting wounds and breaking through these pretty patterned knots I twist around Dad I can't see, I've lost my voice, I need direction Reweighed each choice so many times I've lost reflection You've got to let go so you'll grow Then even when you feel blind you'll still know So I asked again when I get home can I build space? And clear these ripples of disorder and erosion I feel nipping mad And when I find my way through all discolor in my mind Swear I'll never leave imbalance or impatience standing guard or keeping time Cause I hold on to things that dearly need replacing Broken time ruling pain and failed aging When I let go, I just am Conjured back to myself I just am In holding on I've grown too tight My joints are cracked my eyes gone white Stop holding Don't wait too long your face is sown Your fears won't fail and new ones will show Only steps you take will help you to grow And when I hope, I hope I'm home I'll step inside and I'll feel grown If only Don't wait for safe just fall inside And wisely forgetting to take That treasured stain you've always relied I wonder what you'll show