Dead Lakes - Eighteen Weeks lyrics

Selfishness is disease I hope it won't take me I hope it won't break me Like it's breaking all my friends Any means to an end Is it really that f**ed up that I'd rather be dead I know this will make me vulnerable But I have to know Did you ever care more than you showed? When you left for eighteen weeks Did you ever think of me? I hope that when you crack a smile I fill your headspace for a while And if you ever wondered why I'm always scared I've seen people change, they remain unaware Like their loved ones were never there I'm reaching out, I wish you cared Would you dream of me? Even when I slip into anxiety Would you believe in me? Even if it cost you everything Would you dream of me? When you sleep? I hear you calling my name The air on your teeth When you speak of me When you speak of me When you left for eighteen weeks Did you ever think of me? I hope that when you crack a smile I fill your headspace for a while And if you ever wondered why I'm always scared I've seen people change, they remain unaware Like their loved ones were never there I'm reaching out, I wish you cared Would you dream of me? Even when I slip into anxiety Would you believe in me? Even if it cost you everything Would you dream of me? When you sleep? I hear you calling my name The air on your teeth When you speak of me When you speak of me It's complicated but I think I'll be fine Because you can't turn the clock and you can't rewind Still jaded, I missed all the signs 20/20 vision, but with you I'm blind So hold your tongue and let me speak When you left it left me weak Let's find out how far I sink Tie anchors to my feet When you left you for eighteen weeks Did you ever think of me? I hope that when you crack a smile I fill your headspace for a while And if you ever wondered why I'm always scared I've seen people change, they remain unaware Like their loved ones were never there I'm reaching out, I wish you cared