Dead Emotions - Near End Experience lyrics

So much goes wrong, so much brings me down I'll just leave this sh**, try to find new things that count So hard to keep myself sane and not to show my mind to others So easy to swallow the sorrow, but one day I will choke Raping life's rules make me feel A near end experience A fear to change this situation Is stronger than all pain People say catharsis means to hurt yourself Both ways will do, which one shall I walk? I am unclean, full of doubts, but this will f**ing change To be consequent is hard but fais There are seven days left and still it is a question of execution The times of cowards are over, I must show strength A new-born mind on fire To resist the seduction, do it to free yourself