Dead Emotions - Disdained lyrics

The insanity spreads out of me The devil's rejected fall upon me Caught in eternal monotony The approach of joy suffocates A new beginning for the weak Sickened ways to deeper depression Nothing changes I lose the hold on the fairway of my life And head back into the ruins Again and again I disdain you! Hell awaits me But the angels won't cry Please forgive me For the things I have done in my f**ing life A voice pounds in my head You are too old for that bullsh** Steer your life in ordered ways And don't waste still more time I disdain me...