David F. Bello - I Don't Remember The Alamo lyrics

I need to stop doing this to myself I need to stop doing this to you I want to twist off my throat The bottle opener snapped Too weak to do its job From overusing for that My liver can thank me later Gratitude for a quick painless d**h My heart is a different story I apologize for drawing it out Its years of clogged vessels And clotting for kicks It's taking its toll And making me sick with guilt When my eyelids crack At the Venetian dawn The peeled back exposition Of confusion takes its turn I need to stop doing this to myself And thus stop doing it to you Keep punching me I don't deserve to wake up I don't want sympathy And I don't want to seem Ungrateful For my lips can't move mountains Or do a single thing I'm sorry I can't remember You can count the number of times I've tried to k** myself On the back of my left hand But the right is always there To fight off any harm Like the friend you dont know how to thank Or the ringing smoke alarm It woke me up and hit me For wrongs I have caused I can't take back The things I made you saw I don't deserve to know The religion you've become I don't deserve to find The divine sum I'll write out my will In the blood I'll spill Trying to make it up to you And the scars on my wrist Are added to the list The only ways I learn To make it up to you I need to stop doing this to you I'm sorry