Daveed Diggs - Story 4: Sleeplessly Embracing lyrics

Needles under foot as he stumbles down to the dock Big toe feeling it through the hole in his sock Car keys dangling absently from the lock Of the Buick Regal parked to the side of the roadblock Celly on the center console continued buzzing Name on the screen Katrina, parentheses baby cousin "Dissolve Me" is on the speakers is playing into the nothing And he fixes his hair for no one, steady pace, never rushing Faded blue polo shirt missing a top bu*ton Khakis with a coffee stain ripping near where he cuff him Tongue on the roof of his cotton mouth is feeling rough And got a pocket of stones and a cup full of Robitussin Too many stars to count and the moon is up high and blushing Water is the calmest, the breeze in the pine is rustling And the piston in his temple, relentless in how it's crushing Everything but the sound of the crying, screaming, and cussing (The purple round her eye was deepening and he pleaded and backed away from the door) (Sleeplessly embracing) Rage in a bottle, wanna throw it out to sea (Sleeplessly embracing) Never seen the ocean so this lake will have to do (Sleeplessly embracing) Pumping his brakes to the sound of the beat (Sleeplessly embracing) Leave the tarnished ring with a note inside of the shoe It's all f**ed up now sh**, Katrina pushes ‘Send' again Same thing ringing right until the voice messaging Tick tick tick tick, left blinker clicks fast From the burnt-out tail light, open toe on the gas Heater on the face to compensate for the chill Plastic on the pa**enger side window thunders at will New tattoo on the neck itches, but "Damn that's ill" Is what Snake had said to her as she re-ing up on her pills Pop a couple now as she drive around the woods Knew from the beginning that marriage would be no good Told him not to fall for the first available hottie But she knew he would better than anybody He'd always take the first, well technically the second When you count the time he slipped into her room when she was seven And he told her that he loved her and everything was okay That was just a week before they took her mother away (She knows that he's poison but he was the only one who stayed when she needed it most) (Sleeplessly embracing) Dress up like a princess and come out to the party (Sleeplessly embracing) Tired of the burning so this numb will have to do (Sleeplessly embracing) A little bit of dirt never hurt nobody (Sleeplessly embracing) Always protect the thing that you know is true It's all f**ed up now Shoes taken off and placed on the bank Crickets in the distance are dissonant and he brakes He's fine for just a minute, reflecting on all the days Of joy before he slipped back into his sinister ways How well could he justify every choice that he'd make? How little control a little girl could ever take? How little he'd care in the moment if she would wake? Hopefully she was so little, she'd not remember the ache His car is in the water, it's ice, it's codeine It's dimming all the stars and it's muffling all the screams It's now up to his waist and he's waiting until he dreams His pulse is racing, causing the surface tension to steam The water's at his chest, his lungs finally collapse The frogs see it best, he thinks he starts to laugh The water at his eyelids now, and he's 'bout to pa** out She could be rid of him now at last (The note he left read "Please never tell her, love James") (Sleeplessly embracing) The ripples disappear and there's nothing left to show (Sleeplessly embracing) Never been concluded so the end will have to do (Sleeplessly embracing) High not low, and away we go (Sleeplessly embracing) Tomorrow it'll all be a perfect shade of blue (Sleeplessly embracing) It's all f**ed up now (Sleeplessly embracing) It's all f**ed up now (Sleeplessly embracing) It's all f**ed up now (Sleeplessly embracing) It's all f**ed up now