DarkPoet - Black Rose of Despair lyrics

Black Rose of Despair (it's about an addiction) How sad this heart of mine is In my mind I'm fighting mad My body a shell of rotting decay, smells of dying flesh Soul as black as this rose in my hand Memories of you start to unfold such a hold you have on my body Over and over like a broken record Voices in my head, faint whispers "your ugly and worthless" And I just don't care, no life's not fair Why oh why can I never be free Eyes kept closed I don't want to see anymore This unparalleled feeling of no self worth Hiding in shadows alone and distraught Body weak and weary it's tired of the war It's fighting with it's self for so long I fall to the floor in my despair Only to crawl to the toilet bowl then my bed time to rest My brain is drained endorphins As I lay here on my pillow and weep like the willow Eyes wonder the room with a heart of doom I realize never will I be free From this lone, wanting feeling By giving you up I have nothing to gain it peels away the layers of my pain