Dark Lotus - My 1st Time lyrics

[Violent J:] The first time, I didn't even feel guilty Never washed off, stayed bloody and filthy Just laid there next to the kid all night Kind of soaking it all in, and feeling alright I wasn't even old enough to drive yet, it was hell I had to put him on my handlebars and dump him down a well I try to feed of that until I couldn't anymore By my sixteenth birthday, my total had grown to four. [Monoxide:] I ain't afraid of you, but be afraid of me Cause when the lights go down, there ain't no stopping me Memories of my first real k**ing They found her all tied up, just hanging from the ceiling. What I was feeling was just so dark and twisted I couldn't believe I just did this. Now I'm stuck in my very own private Hell Will I ever do it again? Time will tell. [Chorus:] My first time I was in control until the blood It was my first time The bloody mess I had to clean up It was my first time I know this ain't right It was my first time I finally took someone else's life [Shaggy:] Every time I lay my a** down to sleep I pray to f** these memories seize Bloody face and final breaths taken But the first, uh, what was I thinking? Just a piece of rope and a pair of hands It was a man, but she kept talking man Suffocation, through the mouth breathing I chocked her for the very first time for no reason. [Blaze:] It was eleven on my clock, I remember that much In the graveyard waiting for the dope man to show up Ten minuets pasts, and there's still no sign Just then off in the night, I see some headlights A car rolls by, driving slow and I don't know I thought it was my folk, I ain't pulled the .44 They stopped the ride, started blasting The fist time I didn't pull the heat Damn, this what happened [Chorus:] My first time I was in control until the blood It was my first time The bloody mess I had to clean up It was my first time I know this ain't right It was my first time I finally took someone else's life [Madrox:] First time my knife touched skin And the red blood started flowing so quick I just couldn't quit Kept stabbing until everything that I seen was red The pillow, the blankets, the walls, and even the bed One color dominating everything like contemporary art Am I the k**er or artist with bloody heart? Then I curled into a ball in the corner of the room Feeling like a creep in the light of the moon. [ABK:] If I took this gun and put a hole in your chest It won't compare to the first time I put someone to rest Kind of like a dream, but on a nightmare level Every time I think about it I can still hear the shovel Diggin' deep into the dirt to try to hide the pain Knowing I got away with something I'll regret in the end I really shouldn't have never done it But f** it, I did him in The first person that I k**ed was my first best friend [Chorus:] My first time I was in control until the blood It was my first time The bloody mess I had to clean up It was my first time I know this ain't right It was my first time I finally took someone else's life Someone else's life first Someone else's life