Dan Lewandowski - Myself lyrics

Go and k** yourself, that's what they told me You're not worth it, your music's sh** Tried the best I could but I just couldn't Lost it all and how the f** I'm still here, Is beyond me cause all I ever do is think Drink a lot and jump on a track and think Write and I think but I just don't think I overthink so badly that I lose myself Break myself tryna lose myself Lose myself even more tryna find myself Girls f**ing hate me even though I be myself What I do and what I am is never enough They all say it's my fault and it's tough Told me to get a grip when I tried to take my life Battling haters, doubters, anxiety, depression Alcohol, sadness, I'm feeling empty Feeling lonely, tryna figure out if this is worth it Is it worth it? Do I go and fight another day Or do I park here and go for round three? Wait, where's the f**ing tablets?! They don't care about me and that's clear I get that but all I wanna really do is be me Show the world that I'm a writer, A rapper, fair enough it's a mismatch 5 foot 10, 10 stone kid white from Newcastle tryna make it My hometown won't touch me, that's okay Worldwide love, that's even better What if I left here and left an open letter Just give me space, I just need to breathe The time will come I'll leave, ahh I'm running, but what am I running from? My fears? My past? My mistakes? Myself? It doesn't add up cause I don't know myself Do I give it all I've got or give it all up Stop here and watch my team feel let down See the disappointment in their eyes when I give it all up I don't wanna give up, cause this is my dream Every time I walk out and I see the bleam See all the people chanting my name Yeah it shows a brand new flame But I can feel the flame slowly burning out I don't have the energy like I used to Dealing with more sh** than you could possibly imagine Ryan's had my back since the first day Was always there without the pay I overdosed, but it wasn't for f**ing sympathy What do people not get? I was down Down in the gutter, down and out, down in the dumps Fighting my way out a never ending story A never ending fight I wish would end Couldn't see straight, just needed a friend But they didn't give two f**s then Ryan, Threw the rope down in the deep hole I was in Helped me back out the hole and back to my feet Threw me in the studio with my old lyrics Couldn't thank him enough, or my fam I fought my demons and k**ed most of 'em I know they're there and they always will be But I'm ready for the fight I can do it, I've came so far, it feels right No matter what happens you can do this They will always be people that hate you Doubt you, and make sure you feel like sh** But I'm here to tell you that you ain't sh** We all have flaws but an imperfection is what, Makes us perfect and makes us different I learned now what it takes to be myself You can be yourself, don't follow what they say Follow what your heart says and where it takes you I was an underdog that should of never made it this far So if I can prove them wrong, so can you Keep fighting till you can't fight no more You got this, I believe in you