I've been thrown and left for dead It's not for you it's been said My future is dying, my family crying And only myself, I am lying Scared alone, tired and confused Feelings of rejection shorten my fuse Sad but true I am the one to lose I am pathetic I have been used Now I try and fight for a place Myself I'm scared to look in the face Life is short held by strings Mind's been cut please do something I'm sorry, I wish I never had What's happiness, now makes me sad What I had is all lost I must take it back at any cost Motivation the problem but I don't wanna solve them Just wanna sit in my day dream amusement I don't wanna grow up but I don't wanna f** up I just wanna sit in my day dream confusion Make a choice and wish the best This whole game is a test In the past with things I regret Deal with feelings I can't express Final rest the day that breaks Give the gift of greatest grace If I die before I wake Left alone in a perfect place Is this me or is this you I guess I don't know what to do Pick on ideas of such and such I just worry way to much Should I die should I sin? You just want me to give in I gotta smile, gotta say Tomorrow is another day Motivation the problem but I don't wanna solve them Just wanna sit in my day dream amusement I don't wanna grow up but I don't wanna f** up I just wanna sit in my day dream confusion