D. Unis - Hell Of A Year lyrics

[Verse 1: D. Unis] I got missed connections with old friends I got broken doors with broken wedges I got faded thoughts, that's my 6th sense Cause I'm always gone when sh** bends I got a broken heart, With broken dreams I got broken family, I'm a broken fiend I got broken screens, with shattered gla** Why does my present run into the past A year, a year, has it really been a year I still look around and nobody's still here Do they care, do they care, did they ever really care f** it anyways life's never really fair October October, I'm hardly ever so sober Comes November, I can barely remember And then someone had the balls to come and ask me Why does it seem like I'm never happy I was 16 I put my momma in her casket, on October 16 that's when it all happened And I hopped in my whip going a hundred through traffic, walking into the hospital with my mind straight spazzing Man I lost my sh**, man I lost my sh** Nobody should have to see their mom like this But I just did, man I just did, I didn't know how long I could take that sh** Ever been up for 6 weeks straight, with your nights as long as your lonely day And the girl you thought you loved she never really came And when she finally showed up she was months to late And your best friends never seemed to comprehend, how much you really needed them, nor what you thought of them Nobody understood what I was going through I really had no idea what I was going to do You you, you told me you loved me you said you would come said you would stay I I, stood there alone for weeks and weeks counting the days, you never really came You never showed your face You didn't give a f** I lost all my faith Imagine how that feels, just to feel so blank, and everyone around you just feels so fake And how about you when I texted you that day It was 5 in the morning, I didn't have much to say, just wanted to talk, you know feeling someway But you shafted that text, what a slap in the face Outta everyone I chose you that day Don't you think that meant something But when I saw you, you said you forgot Really s**s, because to me you meant a lot Now this is a clear shot,now this is a clear diss To everyone last year who took advantage, of the kid that was lost, who had no hope in Who often walked around heart broken I'm back now, I'm gonna snap now, already told you lames mother f**er get back down, I'm where it's at now, my sounds gonna slap now Put the whole squad and the city on my back now From the west to the east to the north to the south, whoever wants to talk I'm a hit 'em in the mouth I'm grown now, got it all figured out You lame now, you never gonna go and get it now I'm different breed from all you dudes And I'm gonna squad up on all your crews And I'm a sit back sit back and laugh at you fools Who trying to act like they know what they doing b**h I'm a take this sh** to the top No stop in the clock Been working on a lot, been working on these verses And working on my shot, trying to take my team back up to the top And she told me I changed yeah I shoulda knew I said I didn't change baby girl I just grew