D-tin - Reality lyrics

[Verse 1: D-tin] I can't seem to differentiate between what's real and fake All of these voices keep talking to me as if they were the snake Through my unconsciousness I can see what I truly want But I can never reach that height, not even with a loaded blunt And even though I smoke, there are no smoke and mirrors You speak so fake that you're transparent, and you couldn't make it clearer I don't know what to listen to, I don't know what's lie and truth I don't know what I should do, I don't know what I can do I want to believe in this, even if there is no hope To believe that this dream world that I want isn't hanging by a rope Why can't reality just be the way it is in all the movies? Instead it's like my brain, a storm, and the seas aren't sailing smoothly I want to be loved, but I have no friends I want to be remembered, even after the end I want to be able to speak the words that I need to say and never choke I'm either gonna make this dream a reality or I'ma go for broke [Hook: Mini Coop] Am I lost in a dream Or am I in reality? It seems so dark to me I'm drowning, I can't breathe Guide me, help me see Help me to believe That this world of my dreams Is my reality [Verse 2: D-tin] Reality can be whatever you want it to be You can live a living nightmare or a perfect fantasy Unfortunately for me, my life falls under the first If I could change my life then I would without a doubt put it in reverse To forget all of the heartbreaks, being stabbed in the heart with a stake To forget all the times I regret and forget all of my unforgettable mistakes This train won't stop barreling down this track because there are no brakes The saddest part of it is is that I'm awake! I'll do what I can to stop this, I don't care what it takes I'm surprised I haven't had a heart attack with all of these constant heartaches Sometimes I wish I would die, would somebody toss me into the lake? I can't stop shaking cuz of my emotions, it's like I'm stuck in an earthquake I want to live my life like I was an actor in the movies Not have to lie and wear a smile when people ask me how I'm doing Please, let me have an epiphany and turn this life around Before my reality ends up with me laying in a bed in the ground [Hook: Mini Coop] Am I lost in a dream Or am I in reality? It seems so dark to me I'm drowning, I can't breathe Guide me, help me see Help me to believe That this world of my dreams Is my reality [Verse 3: D-tin] Why can't I have the things I want, why can't I be the one that's loved? Why do I have to live my life feeling like I'm despised by the one above? I'm all alone, on my own and that's all I will ever be! Look at me, I'm a freak, who in their right mind could love me? It's time to face the facts, I'm always gonna be hated I'm not even loved by the ones that are related I've never known what it feels like for someone to care All I've known is that these so called "friends" all want me out of their hair I can't even sleep unless I cry and scream! All I have are these constant nightmares, I can't even have a decent dream! This is the cold reality, my mind is in no form of normality There's no home for my heart and no homely hospitality Why the f**, why in the f**, why does nobody give a f**?! Why is it that I'm between a rock and a hard place eternally stuck?! I can't even begin to understand why I can't win Why this game makes me a loser, coming in last place, D-tin [Hook: Mini Coop] Am I lost in a dream Or am I in reality? It seems so dark to me I'm drowning, I can't breathe Guide me, help me see Help me to believe That this world of my dreams Is my reality