D Horton - 12.18.01 lyrics

I remember like yesterday, life's good Best homie in the same hood Fight for him I wouldn't hesitate Better days we were fighting for but I can't lie, it was cool We was skipping school for the holidays No real plans just the principal Pick up games in my neighborhood worth more than pride, funny though We would bet the most crazy things when the money low December day but it was sunny though Now I know that God's plans don't correlate with the weatherman's or your plans That day sh** hit four fans All I know is I woke up and saw Poopsie crying What's wrong, are you leaving again Please don't I'll never tell that you drove the car just please stay Each day I replay what she'd say Take a deep breath look in the mirror Still can hear her Turned around to my biggest fear It was me but physically it wasn't me, it was ugly Woke up like a day later with my whole fam in disbelief that I was still alive Grandma stood by my side Held her hand and asked if I would die She just cried At that point I realized that this time, sh** was real Different deal than a bad cold or a broken arm If I live I'll never walk Can't walk then I'll never run Can't run then I'll never fly f** that I'd rather die Frustrated Doctor calls the whole family in for the worst news For him it's like rehearsal Get the family flowers call the funeral home get a hearse too Can't lie that sh** hurt too To see my momma break completely down in the waiting room while I laid there Lord knows how hard she prayed there That night she was the only one stayed there Superwoman meets Mrs. King meets my whole world while I laid there Nah f** that What kind of man just lays there while his momma hurt all because of him and not at least try For her sake man at least I can let her know how deeply I Apologize for ruining your reception for your wedding That's that selfish sh** Performance time when this track play swear on me I'm a need help with it I ain't lying, nah I ain't lying Decided then that it was game time Here's the deal, God is the ref Boxing match life versus d**h And I'm just sitting here like how many verses left Rapper sh** Moments like these better capture it Crazy how now we can laugh it Wasn't funny at the time but that's why we laugh at it That night I closed my eyes and I began to pray Dear Lord, here I am, use me, right now it's a battle Lord please choose me, who me, yeah you, look around, see my whole Family in celebration what's the occasion? Who me? Well they said I wouldn't walk so I ran out that bish like the man in this bish I was hit got back up like I'm planning this sh** Pa**ing the torch Archie manning and click Really I get, turnt cause I swear that you don't have a clue bout the sh** that I been through Doctors was lost so I gave it to God by the third one I went to Really it's simple Wake up each day on a mission to finish what Martin was dreaming, why Rosa kept sitting and Malcolm kept scheming All came together while David was bleeding and reaching for just one more breath so I can say Thank god for my fam for my squad and my fan base Every day is another day to be grateful. I'm grateful Just in case I haven't said it yet i thank you. I'm thankful This song is a dedication to the day I was chosen 12.18.01 I was almost gone. I wasn't even thirteen The best things we ever learn all come from the worst scenes But I'm gone make the best of it