Curtismith - Currently lyrics

It's been a while for a minute, I was wild and timid Now my style is what influences a rapper with a gimmick But I'm in this I don't ever wanna stop man f** an image, got a problem with my thoughts damn What is love, who is real to the fakes? Am I lost? What's the meaning of the dreams I have to chase? Is it all an illusion I know so well? Thirsty at the party, quench my body in a hotel Now I'm probably in the lobby with regrets Spendin' money ain't it funny what we're doing to regress But I swear I'm growing up and making changes Tryna make this money they tell me I need patience I am not a doctor, just an addiction for green faces I keep chasing these dreams that keep waking me up Yeah what is life but a paradox, see I grind, in my mind Am I good enough? am I good enough? Baby just tell me cause it's been heavy doing shows and stuff Early when I'm showing up, only to be delayed They say it's for exposure so I'm barely getting paid And I guess im getting by, but sometimes I get afraid Cause' following your vision only means you go astray From the shore and these people talking sh** are like the waves Tryna push me back into my place, but I pray, the creator hasn't caved Opening all the doors in mysterious ways, I'm seriously Commited and driven to make my vision come to life I do this for my people, I don't do it for the lights f** a critic's advice I don't need that, this what Imma keep at Got a couple brothers giving real and honest feedback So I don't see slack an option, I keep actions constant Often lost, but got this promise I got this I promise