(Hey Teddy, that's the sound of my beard) [Verse 1] I let 'er back, wasn't as easy as I thought it'd be Solving thoughts of self-worth, getting over you Feeling all these feet that I'm underneath The words are coming about as easy as My peace that it swallows in between And I'm lost with she consuming my thoughts Turning he to he is something I don't need Right, afraid of you, or afraid of me? Aging the lesson, living in future's worry I could never see, so I'm allowed to question And it's not to leave us left guessing I just wanna breath with a chest free of tension Have an answer that defines the meaning It's hard to believe though right? Honesty, now even the truth is hard to read So we coop up afraid to speak and stay silent just be 'Cause anger follows the word we, and we don't get We try, look pathetic, regret that warmth or freeze I'll stand rejected these words infest And now hurt is a cure, wings spread be free And I'll try to be Sometimes I'm guessing the lessons learned Are stretched in tethered seams, seems to stretch Mixing up my thoughts, f**in' up my speech And the circle circle's Starts at the scene where you decide to leave And I can't pretend to not see if you're right Cause if I was you I guess, I would hate me [Interlude] Yeah I felt like that way for like, I 'dunno, for a while, uh, I was like, too busy trying to like, fix a thing, and keep it alive [Verse 2] This is why I step regardless of fate I move from you, feeling sick and afraid Foot at a time every day more empty So I paint but everything bleeds gray You want proof that I move from what I do With every truth seen as excuse What's the use of blame? Already bruised And claimed everything that we went through I'm out of pockets to hold this shame with So sick of past and pain you keep placed in So I ma** mistakes and turn facing a grudge That claim them, hoping it won't hate it But it's a monster, it's not solid My hands go right through So dark and abused, a shadow to hide promises We used to hold on to The only conviction that's said so plain Is against in defense of misjudged statements Till we shake in rage you hold aim with a weight To carry my name in I'm making you look like a bad person, right? Is that what you'd say? I can't feel guilty all the time And there's only so much I could take So the stress made a space in old is a tell in the mirror Only we don't grow, just age to the point of defeat And it shows, straining to speak but just don't As awful as I ever was Hoping for hope, grabbing at air with stares so cold And a person who crumbles in between holds I sift through it looking for gold, but find, that I won't [Interlude] You know what? That's always like the weird part too, like when people break up and it gets like, ugly and terrible. Like how come they can't just remember, like when they met, they saw something beautiful in each other. They found an attractive person they're like, you know, 'I wanna find out more about them, they seem incredible, they seem very nice, they seem... blah blah blah' and you learn about that person. Why's it all have to get ugly? Why can't it just be remembered that, it started because you f**in' liked each other [Verse 3] This distance creates a space We fill with fingers pointing cross-ways And hold our hearts, pledging our side So brave but afraid to step off base Such a waste of air to fill words when Our exhales that hope to help cure just hurt And we search through what's heard for comfort But keep finding an ugly person It's pathetic, someone's gotta say it At this point, I've run out of guilt Somewhere between my try and your pride Free will has turned this to an easy k** Mistakes are made at times, I'm not perfect And worse sh** you could even claim But a better person forgives and moves on Blame threads every glance that you make I'm losing my will to care or be there, be alone If the truth is mutual, I know, my silence is hell [?] where you told take note Poke the bear beware the path you chose Cause you [?] my belly up And I ought to know the same shot I could [?] show where you rot I could push and prod till you fold But I'm not I won't I could but I don't I hold that fault to my chest One hand waving my best, drowning Afraid of distance but let The two of us left upset, stop shouting Assuming a mess, the toll it takes to just rest In peace each piece still counting Ways to forget, unless it's a win it's just stress In address to nothing amounting So let's just bet on downing each other again Prep that poker face, push all in You're all verse to all of me, blood and skin Who wins can say let's just be friends And flaunt it, other pretends to not lose face Gives in, smiles that keep up in company But never feel safe, neglects, reject, just blend in