Cryptic Wisdom - Last Stand lyrics

They say, never ever gonna mount to anything in this life But I've got some pride I'm not swallowing, call on it tonight And they may be right, dropped right outta my high school Got a gun to my head every night, real talk, with a trigger that I might pull Nobody knows it, it's over for me, I'm over the edge And I'm blowing up inside cause I'm not who I'm supposed to be Nobody's chosen me, too sick for the heavens and yet I've neglected the demons in my head, I'm directed like I'm - Never gonna get another chance at joy with somebody else Cause I'm too vindictive, addicted to pain, and yo it might've helped - If I hadn't read into this so stupidly, it could be you and me in the future, f**ing and loving mutually But it's never gonna be that way, life is looking down now Gotta get my fam outta debt, get my hands on a cheque with a mic, I'm looking right out - At the crowd, in my dreams, if you really wanna know what I mean That's too bad cause I just don't trust anyone anymore, you're an enemy This is my last stand, tell me what you really mean Cause after this record I'm headed for the guillotine I can't take it, I've made myself to be someone that I'm not and it's crazy So save all your goodbyes, I'm gonna give it to you one last time So if you hear me, just throw your fists up You're gonna miss me when I'm gone and I give up Day one I'mma take it slow, happiness - I can't make it show Cause I've been forgotten, there's no fixing a forsaken home And the bread, I'mma make my dough, whatever means, I don't hustle crack But whatever it takes, I'mma make my cake, and I might just bust a rap For the green, I see no point, to be doing it free, my joints - Are the hottest products up on the market, rocking, bringing noise But I can't do that, cause I do rap for the fans when I need to vent And you'd better believe me, this ain't easy, I cannot breathe and bet - That if I collect a cheque, for the words in my notepad I'm giving it all away to family, and it's so sad - That it really had to come to this but I'm a f** up and you love it so And the pain that I gain from the life that I'm living isn't gonna get covered, no I just can't keep up with my music life or my challenges Between being me and pleasing you, I can't balance it, and - This may be the last album if you don't stop sleeping and playing me Cause you are never gonna hear another motherf**er drop this sh** like David G This is my last stand, tell me what you really mean Cause after this record I'm headed for the guillotine I can't take it, I've made myself to be someone that I'm not and it's crazy So save all your goodbyes, I'm gonna give it to you one last time So if you hear me, just throw your fists up You're gonna miss me when I'm gone and I give up You're gonna miss me You're gonna miss me when I'm gone (gone, gone, gone, gone) You're gonna miss me You're gonna miss me when I'm gone (gone, gone, gone, gone) You're gonna miss me (miss me, miss me, miss me) This is my last stand, tell me what you really mean Cause after this record I'm headed for the guillotine I can't take it, I've made myself to be someone that I'm not and it's crazy So save all your goodbyes, I'm gonna give it to you one last time So if you hear me, just throw your fists up You're gonna miss me when I'm gone and I give up