Crucified - Path To Sorrow lyrics

sitting here thinking back on the better days, the days gone past before the change, the way things were when everything was new and pure when life was free and filled with hope when everything was explained in full those days are near forgotten the ache of today replaces them what about tomorrow? will I have reached the goal? or died forgotten, with nothing to show? "don't get your hopes up son, there are no guarantees in life but one that eventually you'll die. that's a guarantee you cannot escape from." so i'm sitting here - all alone it's always worse when no one's home why should I continue on if d**h is the only final outcome? to pursue some mythical success that some have been fooled to think exists? only to meet frustration and die still they go on trying and trying and... I refuse to live that lie but then what is there but to die? I knew I require some change but every day comes up the same...fruitless failure - so many say I slow them down i'm in the way spineless - got me convinced they've reached security weakling - got me pegged as if alone they've reached success hopeless - all I am, the difference between this world betrays this world, it feasts upon me failure - far too weak can't even stand on your own two feet spineless - you could never make it in this world of ours weakling - they scream at me inside your self is the strength you need hopeless - the strong survive the weak are devoured failure - I feel defeat but I see now they're hiding something spineless - draw my attention far away from hope weakling - away from God, away from love shake their fists at him above hopeless - could it be? he shakes the world the lie they hold my loneliness is evidence of my failure to stay would mean to pursue some goal which has eluded me so far they say I need no one else, only myself unfortunately that way of life leaves me nothing but hell