Crazy T - Random Thoughts (Part 1) lyrics

[Verse] Dear cousin, cousin Ty, I miss you so much Life was taken away from you, you were just way too young Tonight I'm smoking OG, I hope your spirit fills my lungs Exhale the pain as I reminisce about us being dumb My mom said you wanted to see me when you were making your trips Saw the dude that took your life on the TV and it's making me sick I just wish it never happened, why this evil exist? I want to walk to the steepest edge of the Earth and jump off a cliff The clock ticking and tock, times are bliss when you're with the people that matter Shot you point blank in the head with a f**ing b**h-a** coward Your niece was born in the same hospital that you went to heaven in I guess it's true what 50 Cent rapped about when he wrote “Many Men” It don't gotta be a stranger who wish d**h upon you, it could be your closest friends I got trust issues, not too many real ones that could make it to the end Keep the candles lit while the tears fall Crying out, but they don't hear y'all I don't got the solution, I just pray to God that we can really do sh** Hey dad, I'm really glad you got to come over a couple weeks ago My son got to finally meet his grandfather, what a release like a free throw Cause I was stressin' at night, I couldn't even sleep though Demons scared of my soul like Kinko's But what I been through makes me son's hero We all make mistakes as people I can feel it in the air like Beanie Sigel Positive vibes around me wherever we go I'm tryna change for the better Keep it going, never let a Doubter or a hater put you down Tell them n***as better [?] Put your money where your mouth is if you doubt this Want success, but you stay chilling on couches, slouches Looked at my son's eyes on 3/16 Told him, you'll never know what it means To have a father absent from your life, you'll never be without me I promise I'm spitting like alpacas and llamas as if ‘Pac was among us Through the midnight hour rapping through the stardust I got us I've been through one too many sh**ty jobs I don't even need your applause I'm smoking on the good sh** right now, these are just my random thoughts I woke up to a black man being shot I went to sleep and woke up again to another black man being shot This is all by the cops -- let me stop Damn