Counterparts - Witness lyrics

Expose me for all that I am The man behind the masquerade I am my own false witness Fact resides solely in the depths of my mind And will I ever really let it come to surface? You only see what I want you to see And you believe all that you're told Serenity is a beautiful hoax, a liar I have the whole world convinced of my contentment No truth in this I've lost count of all the times I've made it home alive... And wished I hadn't Expose me for all that I am The man behind the masquerade I am my own false witness I'm left to conquer the mountains in my mind And I am my maker Life is what's k**ing me I hate the fact that I'm just fine Forever seeking anything to take responsibility Life is what's k**ing me I hate the fact that I'm alive Forever searching for my scapegoat because I refuse to face reality At least I can say I tried to cherish Every single day when I woke up and didn't want to die I'd work my hands to the bone Trying to stay suspended in those specific seconds But I know I'm just counting down the minutes Until I'm miserable again