Coolroy ( Lite ) - Vent lyrics

[Verse 1: Coolroy] I haven't eaten in days/ I've become a victim to all my addictive ways/ Depression is progressin' it's reflectin' in my weight/ Shorty said she love me but she can't no longer stay/ So I resort to getting high with guys around the way/ Pain all inside me don't know how to let it go/ Probably cause I was raised to never let it show/ Man yall don't even know the speed that I was forced to grow/ See I was only 10 when I saw that n***a slit his throat/ Now they tryna do me the same/ Not literally, they tryna take my pen from me/ Contributing to my misery/ My girlfriend of three years is sayin' she don't want no kid from me/ But she is four months pregnant, man that f**ed me up mentally/ I'm trembling, remembering the days when I was 16/ Before the d** or liquor overran me I had big dreams/ Now I'm just that high n***a, used to be that fly n***a/ Tell you that I'm doing good I'm barley getting by n***a/ Figured they're after our mind trigger/ Thinking about ending my life quicker/ I give up/ I've been on that road stedy to climb n***a/ Every time I sleep I hear these voices in my mind/ Man they get so mixed up in there I can't tell which one is mine/ I think I'm 'bout to lose it, if I do I'll never find/ But at this rate I'm going it's just a matter of time/ And sh** while we on it, what's the matter with time?/ It seems just a year ago I was doing just fine/ Had some money in my pocket and a women in my bed/ Some food in my stomach I wasn't standing on this ledge/ But now I'm f**ed up these devil's dancing in my head/ I wanna pray but can't remember any bible verse I read/ Did ya over/ I know you said you comin' back but tell me what's the hold up?/ My life is getting colder only way I know to warm up/ Is mixing liquor and soda/ And life is such a b**h and I just can't control her/ I'm not one to complain but dammit I feel plain/ Every time I look in the mirror I feel lame/ Emotional damage is worse than the real pain/ And I tried to light a cigarette and then the tear came and they wouldn't stop/ Nay they wouldn't stop/ Man they wouldn't stop/ Deuce, what up!/