Conzcept - Atlas Hands lyrics

[Verse 1] Mirrors reflection burning into my soul Putting my pain in the pictures of all of these intricate flows Heaven knows if ima make it I ain't talking bout the music that birthed me Heaven knows if i"ll make it to 30 no man can hurt me but my mind drowns with the demons I think my pride will leave me deceased and keep me from breathing Ive never been one too run, 3 beers in my system 4 missed calls from Mom 5 revelations bout Jesus Please just numb me from the pain that is going on That's why I got this potent purple that I'm smoking on It's easy to kick your goals when hope is gone I'm praying I'll salvage my soul and I'll be staying strong It's like my life is moving faster Living internal rapture I'm living for love to capture And ask forgiveness after But what if there isn't no after the aftermath hurts and you better believe That life's like a feather it's gentle indeed and free but what's it impacts it never will leave [Hook] Money came like rain to your hands while you were waiting For that cold old promise to appear People in the churches started singing about their hurts You said "My God is a good God and he cares." [Verse 2] Taking my breath like an asthmatic trapped in a burning cigarette factory with no way out Taking my breath like when an infant is born and hearing through her vocal chords an angels voice when she opens her mouth Without a doubt I know that I still got room to grow Still got way to many parts about me that nobody knows It's like an undiscovered element evil but find it heaven sent Weather its heaven or hell both are equally relevant Delicate words leave my mouth the real me is muted I'm zooted because I zero in on my wrongs when I'm into my zone I feed off the darkness I need it it keeps me whole Now you know that every time I flow it's food for the soul I don't know how the f** I'm supposed to say this Believe me I am the first to see these changes I f**ing hate it but I just couldn't take it anymore And you're the only one that can save me believe me baby It's crazy the dark side that I've been fighting off Is becoming my favorite side as time goes on I was like an infant with my intentions scared of the dark But the light and dark signed a treaty believe me that's the scariest part [Hook] Money came like rain to your hands while you were waiting For that cold old promise to appear People in the churches started singing about their hurts You said "My God is a good God and he cares." [Bridge] I've got a plan, I've got an atlas in my hands I'm gonna turn when I listen to the lessons that I've learned I've got a plan, I've got an atlas in my hands I'm gonna turn when I listen to the lessons that I've learned [Verse 3] I honestly don't ever feel sh** Depression sets can never rest when the real hits And this is real sh**, but it stays hidden I can't believe I was content with the life I was living k**ing my liver drinking almost everyday of the week If I wasn't drinking better believe I was smoking weed Cuz I am weak and I've always been I f**ing hate myself, wish I could save myself But now it's red eyes under cheap shades Memories fly over my mind like red eyes over freeways I'm screaming please stay. I promise Ima change Just give me a chance but my grip began to slip right through your hands Now I'm looking up as I'm falling Hoping you hearing me calling I had it but now I've lost it I've gotta get back to the basics Basically I'm a target for myself and I'm never missing When you were talking man I should've listened Now I'm 19 thinking about therapy am I insane ? What does happiness mean can I hear the definition again ? But instead of drinking a bottle and swerving through the fast lane Ima put my heart in my verse so you can hear the pain I'm gone [Terza Rima] The words will leave my lips not thinking twice Until the darkness bleeds over the sky I pay the price for asking your advice It hints the end but I resist goodbye The words of immaturity will echo I search in the sky for answers to come by My hopes as high as angel like falsettos They pierce my hears with very graceful tones My mind and spirit become a libretto The devil advocates my heart to stone "your evermore is impossible" he screams "be free of pain as if you were alone" I'll fight my fear, I'll persevere, and gleam Loves a battle, a war, and just a dream