Connor Samways - Lullaby lyrics

[Hook: Tori Kelly] All the times I have laid in your light When your love kept me safe through the night All the time, I was sure you were mine And before time demands our goodbye Can you sing me a last lullaby? [Verse 1: Connor Samways] It's been a while since I last dreamt Barely remember what it's like to dream Finding it hard to get to sleep, too stressed And there ain't anyone to sing a lullaby to me Pretend sh** doesn't get to me And I suffer in silence when I'm hurting A man's problems are his own And it's my burden Tossing and turning, trying to get to sleep But I find it hard to switch off when my mind's working I ponder on things I shouldn't bother with Off the rails, my train of thought's wandering Sick of pretending to be so happy All the while my anxiety eats away at me My skin crawls, I look up to the sky And it falls, the walls close in and it's As if all the good in my life disappears In an instant, happiness is so distant So seeing the ones who I love, the ones who love me But I don't wanna tell em how I feel in case they judge me It's just me, wish I could let somebody in But I ain't ever been too trusting [Hook: Tori Kelly] [Verse 2: Connor Samways] I've barely had any sleep when I get up Sick of all these nightmares and these night terrors Like it's only when I'm in heaven that I sleep better Might sleep better when I get up, I'm weak It just makes my day harder, I wonder if It would've been any different if I had a father that I knew Could it have helped shape the way that I grew? But the point of things I never have went from Being a reason for the things that I do To just being an excuse that I'd use I've gotta take responsibility for the things I do Find something other than negativity for my fuel But I feed off it, even when I don't seem bothered I hide everything that's going on inside Guess it's been a while since I've been honest, I need help But I deny it and even lie to myself like I'm fine [Hook: Tori Kelly] [Bridge: Connor Samways] I just wish someone would tell me it would be OK But pessimism leads me to believe that it won't To see even a glimmer of hope in the darkness Is hard and depression is a slippery slope I don't wanna bleed like I did with my wrists So I carry on even though it's hard to The only thing that's definite is d**h and things always change As long as you give em a chance to [Hook: Tori Kelly] (Can you sing me a last lullaby?)