Commander Bentley - Day by Day lyrics

My mind is spinning so far out of control It's hard to accept, don't think that I will ever feel whole I don't think that I will ever even get to grow old And if I k** myself, please gods bless my soul This depression has always been a plague on my life Always filling me with anger, poison and strife I have to take five pills just so I can feel sane But even then all I ever get is pain Shrink says to stay home less and go get out more­­­­ But it's hard when your anxiety kicks in at the door It feels like my feelings have made a contract of war And I'm the civvie who ends up on the floor Cruising down the street in a town that don't sleep Tryna keep my mind busy with the thunderous beats 4am, I don't think that l will ever get sleep I pull up in that empty lot and weep sh**, just the other night I had to leave work early My mind was overflowing with depression and worry Thoughts racing so fast that my vision got blurry It'd be a miracle if I made it to thirty Suicide on my mind and it's hard to get out It's just a constant stream of hellish f**ing panic and doubt It's like my brain is just a barren wasteland in a drought Make me wanna holler, scream, and then shout It's difficult just to find the pleasure in things Anxiety on what the next day might bring Everyone is flying and I'm still tryna get my wings Despair, even if we livin' like kings Tryna find a way to make the pain go away It's a struggle but you gotta take that sh** day by day Not much we can do except just hope and pray That our minds might be free from this prison someday Take them meds, pop on a track and relax Craft them lines, perfect my rappin' syntax It's all that I can do just to keep my head focused And let them pills work that hocus pocus Take a sec to chill in this get-up-and-go Society sobriety is not for all of us, though you gotta Try to free your mind from all the sadness and woe The only thing that keeps me moving is the parable flow I kick back and spark up that bowl in the bong The stress and all the pain starts to die before long The stress and pain that you feel makes you strong Now chill with me and help me rock this song Don't let the stress of burden hold a weight on your heart Don't let your inner voice keep telling you that you isn't smart Don't let yourself believe that you're not a f**ing work of art You gotta let that sh** go like a fart Hop up in the whip and take that sh** for a drive Bump the tunes until you feel the funky flow and the vibe Do it how you do it till you feel like you are alive Cuz that way we all might just survive