Colton Belley - Contact Light lyrics

{intro: jacelyn} A-l-l-live A-l-l-live (alive) A-l-l-live A-l-l-live (alive) {verse 1: colton belley} I can feel my heart thumping through my chest with force Hands grasping a mug that smells like sweaty socks And lemon lime, and ginger shreds Hoping i don't end up kissing porcelain I told myself i would never touch this sh*t But fu*k this sh*t, i don't give a fu*k anymore So bottoms up and choke as the warmth coats my throat Lay staring at the ceiling to see if it'll morph Listening t'indian music as the fluids take over Anxious as all hell i wait for the fallout Pace to the washroom and stare at my face awestruck Like: "is that me?" Last i checked i was six spreading lego in my bedroom Now i'm in a uni dorm inspecting my pupils in my reflection Grinning wide While my face dances 'til i remember i'm hanging at my man's place I stick my head out the door and walk in like "it's all good." Get his pen in my palm and start scribbling my thought stream Then.. sh*t. these letters slip effortlessly Every thought i think has layers of depth i never cared to see The moment's so real i feel like i've never lived {pre-chorus: colton belley} Yo fu*king hell I understand everything {chorus: jacelyn} So, this is real Don't be afraid Look in the mirror It all can change Head up to the sky, yeah And let it go, let it go And be alive It's your birthright to be alive Al-i-i-i-ive (yeah) {verse 2: colton belley} What the fu*k am i expecting to go on here, cross-legged Sitting on a bench like i'm gandhi, watching Joggers pass as the sun rises Eye lids looking like a raccoon on vyvanse It's not like god's gonna save us I'll wake up stranded in the same spot Face judgement same as since day one Say nothing, walk the path they laid down (nah) But that sh*t doesn't work I got the girl, got the grades, made a mint from stunts Did all i thought it'd take and i'm still alone What's the point of faking it if i just kid myself (ay) Now i'm at the waterfront like an a**hole Staring at a blank page in a notebook I thought i'd be the sh*t, i was hopeful I scribbled in a thing and it goes: {bridge} I've got no sleep, no peace, i can't cease to be me I keep running from reality, it keeps coming right back to me I'm at war all the time in my mind and i hate it I can't take this anymore, i just want to escape it {pre-chorus: jacelyn} Yeah Yeah Yeah {chorus: jacelyn} So, this is real Don't be afraid Look in the mirror It all can change Head up to the sky, yeah And let it go, let it go And be alive