Coldworker - Paradox Lost lyrics

In the midst of my last attack Panic drags me into the black Weak and frail I leave myself behind In the darkness I am reborn Full of queries but all forlorn This new life will destroy my mind Pa**ion or possession? I can't decide Engulfed by my life's obsession In questions I will hide Debating the solutions Lost and perplexed I'm stumbling through the confusion Quandaries so complex Battle in my head I look for answers but no one's there to guide me Battered by the dread That all my worries will remain inside me Drowned in desperation Border is crossed Heading towards obliteration In the paradox I am lost Sanity deteriorates Broken and torn Madness rapidly propagates Waiting to unleash the storm Battle in my head I look for answers but no one's there to guide me Battered by the dread That all my worries will remain inside me I'm lost in the paradox Quandaries so unorthodox Messing with my head, making me loose my mind So lost in the paradox Locked up inside the box There's a battle in my head, and I'm really loosing my mind... I'm slowly turning inside out As I question what it's all about The desperation feeds on me A ravenous cancer, tearing me apart Paroxysmal, evil d**h Lost in mind, lack of breath Paradoxical way to die So confused, I close my eyes