Coal Cash - Still Say Your Name lyrics

Every time I reach success I get the rug swept from under me Running as each step tugs the neglect that was strung to me I'm one for deep breaths, weight on my chest force my lungs to bleed I'm numb by each d**h, waiting to rest exhaust encumbers me I'm wonderfully depressed guess I'm useless like most left hands Manned up for the best ever funny cause I've never been a best man With best plans laid to waste, fueling misery saved by grace I embrace it beautifully cause it's usually all in faith Call to haste to embrace for impact, chasing the wind where the cyclone spins at Waste of the skin and I might go inapt, taste of the sin of the psycho synapse Violence to win to silence the din, my science has been defiantly in, the pinnacle hunger so I am the hunter so it ain't no wonder why I got giants for kin Triumph begins to stick a fork in hear the whisperers talking coffin the things you thought, I'm king of New York ain't talking Christopher Walken To visit the scorching flames of Gehenna heretic epicenter The nemesis specter of Tesla manifestor of America's best antenna Inventor of frequencies, spitting sequence of a grievance me Egregiously frequence the deep end like a weekend spent on DMT We're TNT a freeing spree with Tabs my PNC Emcees are fleeing fast like I'm the tarrasque out of D&D No seeing me get DDT'd until you deeply bleed Can't believe that's your rhyme go through your lines like it's an easy read Your measly steez don't appease me because you keep it cheesy Cold breathing the scripture to change the picture like a freaky freezy I keep it greezy reap the harvest of this garden of garbage Garnish gratuity plus the annuity ya foolishly squandered I pondered upon it til I vomit from its economics that promised impoverished people chances of equal to get beyond it That sh** is comic like Islamic State Israeli snakes I wake to it daily, wait for it to fail me and I can barely take The hate that jails me in aggression expressing depression, oppression of fleshly stress til my soul manifest in the session We're destined to bless with d**h so the rest should just turn and run Is Tabs One the best? Yes, where the f** you think he learned it from Eternity spun the sun's cycle where the Sons disciple it's spiral propelled, I'm spitting shells like my tongue's a rifle I'm Michael as well to quell Satan when he tries to rebel He fell with the forsaken, my occupation is take him to Hell Awaken from spells I'm held under thunder through Wonderland Stranded in lands of slumber laid under, no closer to understand The plan for it all I'd fall for a chance just to glance at its halls Then crawl back on my hands goddamn I should've answered his calls And now it's all in memories faded as my propensity waited for faded recollections epiphanies blessing as my sensory made it Elated wishing for all the loved ones that I was missing It's misting up my eyes cause I still cry over this reminiscing Remembering with in when I was with them now I'm with out Someone who knew my troubles when I was struggling with this doubt Fully eclipsed now the ship's bow sinking below the waves Amazed at how I've strayed, afraid I no longer have a soul to save I'm weighed down to grave sounds like I'm near the verge Disturbed surging with tears and I wonder if you can hear these words Purge the fear I'm still here holding down the fort Taught to stand my ground hell-bound without the ground support And clowns would talk behind my back and I'm reminded that the path of art is fearless so if they hear this I hope their minds react with panic to enact a synapse firing inapt my syntax firing Dim Mak fry the wiring in your tin hat They call it panache, I got ya style retiring in trash I've been pa**ed the torch, scorch til your cohorts are in ash I need to swim fast because this current leads to undertow I know I gotta believe but still I grieve at what the numbers show I wonder though how far it goes and should I even try Why am I breathing, don't stop believing even if dreams can die I mean to cry, the wells are dry behind the seeing lens Pretending you're by my side and when I die I hope we meet again Nothing feels the same and it's never gonna change Filled with this pain, sometimes I say your name Standing in the rain and the world seems so strange Your memory it wanes, sometimes I say your name