Coal Cash - Middle Of Know Where lyrics

[Tabs] Pardon me but part of me has become harder then arctic numb Chasing cheap thrills while disease fills my heart and lungs I've sounded the marching drum Maintained an insane pace only to end up in the same place I started from I am my father's son, insanity is all ours Gathered war scars in battle and the apple doesn't fall far We walk hard, embracing these desires But the dash of my internal drive says "maintenance required" I finally understood the synopsis then the topic changed To be precise the key of life is out of my octave range We are not the same You talk, I walk through the hottest flames of this rotten game to try and stop the pain It's ironic cuz I'm dying to stay alive But I'm courting the devil in a blue dress calling her angel eyes It's fictitious my whole existence has been plagiarized The first addition was written when I was in a great disguise I can't decide how to properly say thanks for this Waiting for the light to go off over my head like an angler fish Sinking in the shallows attached to an anchored ship Swinging from the gallows thinking I can get the hang of this But there's troubled water's off of the starboard bow This blood letting is upsetting cuz it's just getting harder now Scars are found abounding cuz they found me when my guard was down It's getting darker as men and martyrs barter for a larger crown Took me a minute tops to know it's not about getting props Cuz I see mr. big shot getting dropped by bigger shots Gotta figure I'm a take shots of liquor til my liver rots While trying to pull the right lever to get me out of this Skinner box Maybe it will stop the system shock but it's not likely I'm ugly so God loves me but he does not like me Cuz I'm an impostor painting Sistine chapel knock offs And the only truth in my art is the marks on my drop cloth I've got thoughts like will I ever escape this cursed dance Or am I cursed to die circumscribed by my circumstance I'm forced to concentrate on these contemplative thoughts But of course my conscious state tends to consecrate the source So it's just my imagination running away with me Plain to see aspects of this dungeon becoming unsavory Seems simple from A to Z Reminiscent of an infant who reached the cradle in prenatal complacency No considerable difference between actively rejected and pa**ively accepting a miserable existence It's the pinnacle of indifference, yet we pretend it's worth it Then create gods and monsters to give ourselves a sense of purpose Somewhere between hell's furnace and the attic in heaven lies the answer to this disaster but it's out of the question Try to capture the essence without an ounce of help Couldn't walk away because I lost my way but I found myself Now I'm transmitting signals from the middle of nowhere Existence is brittle to answer the riddle is so rare Oh yeah I broke down on the highway to hell So I blaze an L cuz I don't have a road flare I found it astounding surrounded by cold stares So when I reach the peak I took a leap off heavens gold stairs Haunted by the underachievement of past goals Wishing I was never born trying to terraform these black holes If that's so then can I get an amen For those that never know how to let it go or when to say when This inquisitive nature changed us into insane men Because of the babbling sounds that rattle around our brain stems Like what is this life for and why do we fight for And how do I get some and which one is the right door I'm not quite sure but this feeble cry for help can't be heard over man's incessant need to deify himself [Coal Cash] Rape humanity, I can't escape profanity Calamity waits as I head straight for insanity The atrophy's safe so I embrace with apathy And happily break I'm trying to wake out of this rhapsody But naturally fate will scrape my husk hollow I wallow in disgust became the rust that's sure to follow I'm swallowing dust from the crust of my sarcophagus Ma**aging the touch enough to crush my esophagus Misogynist plus the lust got the best of me Especially in the option of adding toxin to the recipe Aggressively blossom, doctrines of dropping casualties Seeding poison apples to cackle at what my satchel feeds I need my shackles like castles need their parapets Call me Aramis I need my face between a pair of tits Aware of this starring at bliss, turning to turmoil Recoil to piss on strands of lamp stands trying to burn oil Foil my plans from damnation's sabotage Now I flag the mirage of Jihads that I was glad to dodge Where was God trying to nail me in his cross hairs Off stairs of heaven me and my brethren ended in warfare It's all fair we tending the ascending of your conscious The nonsense never ending and I'm not defending the monstrous I'm just obnoxious my process called the guillotine Known to lose my head and act dead with dread to k** my dreams Still my screams are echoes that I won't let go Ahead of my time, a master mind like El Greco I gesso designs cuz I'm incline to follow no man My slow jam's are Bach writing to "Raindrops like Chopin Low man on top a verse stature seeking rapture Trying to master my life but some heights you never capture Moving faster than light, in hindsight feels like I'm frozen Eroding with cyanide, affect the tide of the ocean Open my eyes to no surprise of being blinded Reminded myself of there so I don't care if I can't find it Confined by the snares, swear it ain't air that I'm breathing I ain't even prepared to bear the share that I'm receiving Believing is rare with a pair of aces and eights A deceiving oasis and I swear the faces are fake Embracing a snakes so don't debate on my you're bitten If you're smitten with fools no wonder the shoe is fitten I'm splitting the fuse, don't confuse the line symmetry Infinity of the mind, trying to break the time that limits me Physically fine, but misery's mine to cherish On a ferris-wheel effect until the date my flesh will perish A sheriff of d**h bereft of the restitution The pollution I ingest won't digest from the retribution I'm doing my best but hey I guess it's not adequate Elaborate depression and I'm never getting out of it Devil's advocate who'd rather dishevel the immaculate Cuz facts slip through your crack when you sat on the lap of Baphomet That's just half of it so raise the mast on that raft of sh** Your ship sinking fast their trynna see what else your a**'ll fit Cuz life's a b**h I'm feeding dick to that princess I'm pretty convinced her prince had a similar hint to incest Been blessed with sight, but not the right to speak it My life endures another poor righteous teacher But f** Fnord's I trust the Lord I'm not a preacher Cuz I'd rather play in the game than pray for change from the bleachers I hope this reaches open ears who ain't opposed to hear A page in my beliefs it's hard to read cuz it's been soaked in tears Broke from fears but it appears they still track me So I guess being afraid is the only thing that backs me And that's exactly the riddle of why I go there On that road since I'm little heading into the middle of (k)nowhere