CoaastGxd - Alone I Descend lyrics

I gave it a chance but it wasn't enough I paid in advance but it wasn't enough I put my heart in it Fully restarted it Gave it my all but it wasn't enough I got excited for once in my life but the pain it provided would never subside So i ran and i run and i hide away So i'm stuck at home smoking the night away Ive got some broken bones Ghosts who rejoice in my overdose Hopeless the rope is my only home So just leave me the fu*k alone Let me wallow and swallow thеse pills while i'm writing thesе lonely poems Open my throat to the world and the vultures turn up in wake Waiting for my decay Baiting their hooks while i'm wasting my life away I'm wasting my life away I wish i could just stop fu*king up Over and over i get stuck coming up Cover myself with the mud that i'm suited for Life in the gutter is what i was rooted for A loop i was doomed to repeat for eternity Endlessly bring me back to the fact that i'll never experience certainty But i mean certainly i can't expect anymore for myself than the millions who can't even eat I feel so defeated There's really no winning when living is counting the days of the week Counting the hours til we sleep Counting the ways we could fu*k it all up between now and the furthermost end we conceive How can i ever find peace if i can't even focus on anything out of my reach? Alone i descend I return to the deep