Club Des Belugas - Desperately Trying (Swing Mix) lyrics

Never fears at home when he is with me That is where he told me where he loved me Leaving me desperately trying to understand Desperately trying to find a home for him to move to Desperately trying to find a place for us to stay Said he never really got through to me That I never opened up emotionally Guess I kind of lost my trust on the way Since he is gone I'm sinking Sinking deeper into who I really am Now I'm brave enough to show what's inside But it's too late Sad he'd never loved me That he always stopped for his feelings to grow And I went and hope and hope for things to change Since he is gone I keep on finding out All these little things about him Realized in fact that he was always there without (?)