Clark Baxtresser - Spy Again lyrics

[Curt] How did I get back here? I swore I'd never return Four long years since it happened, Mega I guess you never learn But maybe this time will be different It might be what I need Who knew I could feel again Who knew I could forget my... my... no [instrumental] [Curt] Memories always seem to be Always haunting me Until I can't think Then I try, try to deny I let him die Then I pour myself a drink Then another, and another drink Until it does the trick 'Til I forget What's in my head What I regret Then I have another drink Then another, and another drink Until I get my fix 'Til the morning light When the sun is bright And nothing's right I lost the fight And I remember.. I once was a spy, but I can't be a spy again I once was a spy, how could I be a spy again? I once was a spy, but what if I was a spy again If a spy is a spy and I once was a spy Then I can be a spy again Thought I could say goodbye, but I can't lie I wanna be a spy again Wanna be a spy again Gonna try again Hop in a jet and fly again Grow a spine again Make it mine again Do my best not to cry again And I know just where I'm goin' Me and my partner Owen No! I do what I can, try to make a plan, to be a better man But nothing seems to stick In the mirror, nothing's clear, what is this beard? Oh, where's my drink? And another, and another No, I'm gonna be sick Owen please, if you could see, what's become of me What would you think? A spy is a spy I once was a spy I think you'd want me to spy again I put this drink down Turn my life around I wanna be a spy again Spy again, it's who I am Doesn't even matter if I k**ed my best friend Spy again, wear a suit and tie again Drink martinis and drive again Spy again, get by again Feel like a real important guy again Fight crime again, it's do or die again Get my life right again Owen would want me to do this So I know that I'll get through it 'Cause a spy is a spy is a spy is a spy is a spy And if I once was a spy Then I'm gonna be a spy The best f**ing spy Again