You ever wake up one morning and think what is life Knowing you living wrong but can't seem to make it right Thinking that you are strong but you lost couple fights See life unexpected so it got you thinking twice And you hate what you are but can't be who you want to be Try live in present but your past still haunts you And you the same person they all once knew But you changed because you started to see the truth And that's real Can never have opinion never show how you feel As soon as they know you different that's their cue to close the deal Cos a girl with a mindset deeper than s** appeal Is a threat even to men but I still keep it real See most of you have opinions but none of you even know me Acting like you my friends but we aren't never been homiest Bragging you got it bad like it be some kind of trophy I been in and out of home since 15 sh** is lonely You would think I had it great don't ever judge a face Can never just a walk by the shoes they have laced Could never feel my struggle unless you really had a taste But for now you could go ahead and hate I started with a notebook pen in my hand Writing poems just to escape the pain in advance See rap gave me confidence I never knew I had Rap raised me no father figure no dad You rapping cos its cool and you the trendy type I rap because when I tried to commit it saved my life Those suicidal thoughts that were running through my mind Are no longer existent to the past I left behind I rap about my life I'm not here to sugar coat it But still half of you will question if I truly wrote it Blinded by the fact that my skin is not black you would think its all an act Weather ignorance is noted But I continue coos I was raised a fighter Try to dim my shine but my future seems brighter I never had a father but I prayed to one higher He don't judge me by mistakes he don't look at my attire But he loves me for what's real And that's something you couldn't take My bond between god you could never break And see my faith that's something you could never shake When I was crying in the gutter god was never late So I could feel it in the air can't see him but I know he's there Only truly one who cared no but still fed If it weren't for my father I'd be locked up or dead So I dedicate this to my main man Amen