Cj Trillo - Conscious lyrics

[Intro] My stream of conscious has gotten so much worse I've grown accustomed but didn't trust it at first The more I'm living the more I'm feeling I'm lost I wanted to give my soul but kept forgetting the cost My special woman is growing more every day I swear I keep overlooking the subtle sh** that she say Had a conversation with her Asked her, ‘what you want' She spoke with a quiet voice, ‘I want to be free of wants' sh**, took a second just to comprehend My biggest compliment was always using common sense But once you take your past lessons and apply to life I think you start becoming someone that you might've liked [Hook] So stay with me, all of my sh** is monstrous, all of my sh** is mainstream, all of my sh** is conscious Stay with me, all of my sh** is monstrous, all of my sh** is mainstream, all of my sh** is conscious [Verse 1] I'm feeling light, like we been here before So I ain't gotta speak on heavy I done did it before I done did it with trill I did it all in the past And volume one was just a taste of what I wanted to ask Do y'all feel me Tell me for real, do y'all feel me Half tank up on this hill, would y'all feel me Flat broke up on this stage do y'all feel me I said flat broke up on this stage do y'all feel me I done dined with the devil Deal in the works He told me heaven gotta pop So I'm feeling to burst I ain't worried ‘bout no flops, cause I'm still on this earth My competitions looking foul so I'm stealing it first I ran it home, I don't change I just grow into life Its evidently my own stadium, I'm showing the lights This mental marriage got my whole squad throwing this rice I feel it deep within my bones, that's how I know when its right [Hook] So stay with me, all of my sh** is monstrous, all of my sh** is mainstream, all of my sh** is conscious Stay with me, all of my sh** is monstrous, all of my sh** is mainstream, all of my sh** is conscious [Verse 2] I wrote again ‘cause I thought, ‘f** it, its your birthday' I wanna talk instead of giving you this wordplay Like, straight up I been feeling these things Like I'm slowly getting closer now to seeing my dreams Become reality shows and shows all on my schedule The tour bus got 8 screens and hot tea on the kettle I'm trying to level with the fact that I ain't got you alive But you know music keep me working like I got me a job I put in work, this work feeling like its writing itself I saw your pic the other day and took that sh** off the shelf Slipped the frame in my pocket Now I carry you with me Got people asking ‘bout your name, I told the world that it's Cindy I use your memory for good to preach of lessons in love I hold my anger in contempt and only stretch for a hug I know at times I lose myself You bring me right back around If all was lost I'd have to say, it once was but its found [Hook] So stay with me, all of my sh** is monstrous, all of my sh** is mainstream, all of my sh** is conscious Stay with me, all of my sh** is monstrous, all of my sh** is mainstream, all of my sh** is conscious